Fantasy Names and Self-Indulgence

Around the same time that I first created Floerian Silverstring (so about eleven years ago), I created another typically fantasy character: an elven enchanter named Uuloui. Like Floerian, Uuloui was a character I played on EverQuest, and used in a role-playing group, so he developed quite significantly as a character. Actually, he was, in many ways, me in fantasy form, or some kind of self-idealized version of me, or something… But since he wasn’t me, and there were some differences, I’ll say he developed as a character apart from me.

In fact, Uuloui was more “my character,” an extension of myself, than Floerian was back then. I used the name Uuloui for my email address, and he grew to have a much larger place in the world I was creating back then (the same one I’m redeveloping now). Uuloui became much more than a character in a video game for me. Like Floerian, he took on something of a life of his own.

The problem was, no one could pronounce the name right, just from reading it.

When I created the name, I pronounced it “OO-loo-eye”. It made sense to me. Maybe that’s just because I was in grade 6. But when most people saw it in writing before hearing me say it, they would find different ways to pronounce it — “you-loo-ee” was a common one. It irked me somewhat. But it was my creation, and I pronounced it the way I thought it should be pronounced, and anyway, what did they know?

Skip ahead eleven years. Uuloui has never really featured in my writing, I’ve become somewhat more interested in the story of Floerian, and knowing that he features largely in the first novel I wrote (The Nexus; though it won’t likely be the first novel I publish), switched my online persona to Floerian (my email address, my twitter account, etc.). But Uuloui was always still there, in his place in the world I’d created and was still playing with.

And then, last month, I decided I wanted to write a new short story. It would be a more typical fantasy story than I had written in awhile, and it would be about this group of people I’d been playing with in my head for awhile, and it would be the first in what I hope will be a series of short stories about this group of people, but this one would focus on the story of Floerian (in a different period of his life than in The Nexus). But this group of people included, and always had in my mind, Uuloui.

So here I was, finally writing a story about the two characters I had created years ago, each of whom had developed far beyond my original creations into their own entities in my mind.

The problem that I was suddenly faced with as I was writing was that suddenly, I was faced with a potentially large audience of readers, people who might one day become a regular audience of mine and thus who I wanted to win over with my story, seeing this name in print and not knowing how to pronounce. And — heaven forbid — pronouncing it wrong.

Now, had I just created the character as I was writing the story, and realized from peer editors that the pronunciation of the name was confusing, I would probably just change the name.

But this character is not someone I just made up, his name isn’t one that, to me, is arbitrary anymore. He is a person, and to just change his name would be… wrong.

Besides — it’s my writing, shouldn’t I be able to name my characters whatever I want? Maybe it’s just self-indulgence, writing what I want to write with no thought to how others will react. But why do we write, if not self-indulgence? I don’t write things solely because I think they’ll sell. Hell, my preferred genre is queer fantasy YA, which is about as niche as you can get (though, hopefully it’ll have the opportunity to be more mainstream within the YA market, which tends to be more open genre-wise than others). I write what I write because that’s what I want to write. That’s what I want to talk about. That’s what I enjoy (and to some extent, what I wish I had to read growing up). I’m self-indulgent when I write every day.

But if I want to get published, I do have to consider my editor, my publisher, my audience. Does that mean I have to do things with my writing that I don’t really want to do?

I tried to solve the problem within the story. It’s a first person narrative, and I introduced a new character saying the name “Uuloui,” then had my narrator remark that he was surprised the new character pronounced the name correctly, and kind of explained it all.

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