If you know me at all, it should come as no surprise that I’m starting a new project.
Actually, given how long it’s been since I’ve posted here, I think I’ve started a dozen. But I’m just going to talk about the most recent one. Because speaking of how long it’s been since I’ve posted here, I want to get back into the habit. Back into just writing, just saying things.
I think the last year or so has been typified for me by caring too much. Caring that what I produce is going to be well-received, but I think more importantly, caring that it’s going to accomplish something. “I’m going to create x story because it’s going to get me an audience. Then I’m going to create x story because it’s the kind of thing I might be able to get funding for.” Which I’m doing. I actually have a lot of really exciting things on my plate right now.
But then I also get hung up on things. I want to make sure the story I’m writing is as good as it can possibly be before I release it to the world. And yeah, obviously I want my stuff to be as good as it can possibly be. But it’s been making it hard to just sit down and write. Because there’s so much planning and worrying and second-guessing.
Which brings me to the new project. I’m going to write a new story. And by story I mean probably something novel-length-ish. It’s going to be unconnected to any of the other stories I’m writing, using some ideas I’ve had for past stories that didn’t go anywhere. I have a few plot and character ideas, but I don’t really know where it’s going to go. I’m just going to start writing it.
I’m going to make it very clear to myself that this is a first draft, that it doesn’t have to be perfect. That maybe I need to go back and describe people better, but whatever, I can do that on the second draft. Right now’s just about putting words on paper and caring as little as possible.
I think ultimately I might post it all on Wattpad or something, make it clear it’s a first draft, but just put it out there. If people like it maybe I’ll do a second draft, but maybe I never will. I just need it to be fun to write. That’s the entire goal.
Maybe I’ll actually finish this one.
What about you? Ever find yourself stalling because of worry? How do you forge ahead?